Other D words

6 11 2008

Detroit

After being bounced around as to what process to follow, I finally called our disability services number regarding the strike situation.  The lady was really nice and took down all the information that I wanted.  I got a claim number and squeezed in an appointment with my endo at the last minute.

My endo does not seem worried about getting the accommodations that I request.  And he didn’t seem to agree with me that being in Detroit would be bad.  From his perspective, I handle everything pretty well and don’t really need to be close to them.  From my perspective, this makes me nervous.  Although, my endo did mention the name of an endo he knows in Detroit that’s pretty good, so at least I would have that.

I’m really scared about the whole situation and I hope it gets resolved to my satisfaction.  Things are in motion, so all I can do now is wait.

Disappointment

While I was at my endo’s office for the strike stuff, they also did an A1c.  I wasn’t really due for one, but I was curious since I’ve been on the Dexcom for a few months now.  It came back a disappointing 6.1%.  Now, I know that is still a great number, but it broke my sub-6 streak.  My endo thinks that this is a “better” A1c because with Charlie, I have fewer lows.  So my overall control is better (less swings), but it results in a slightly higher A1c.  I know I should be happy, but after a 5.5 just 2 months ago, I still feel like a failure.

Depression

There are a lot of things going on in my world right now (as somewhat indicated by the above 2 sections) and it’s getting really hard to manage.  Too much stuff, not enough support.  Too many unknowns and no good solutions.

My mom had/has depression, and diabetics are more likely to have depression, so I’ve got 2 things going against me.  I refuse to take medication, and I already see a therapist, so I’m not sure what else I can do to get out of this funk.  How do I, as a perfectionist, let things go and allow it to be okay?

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4 responses

6 11 2008
Scott K. Johnson

I too was a “I’ll never take brain meds” guy for a long time. But you know what, sometimes we just need the extra help. We do have a lot more on our plates than someone without diabetes…

6 11 2008
Jillian

As far as the depression thing goes, meds can be very helpful and do not have to be a long term thing. If you are totally against them, exercise is usually one of the first things doctors suggest. Good luck with all the D’s, we’ll all be thinking of you.

6 11 2008
Kristin

I’m originally from the Detroit area and can recommend a couple good endos.

Rana Alsabbagh at St. Johns Hospital is an excellent endo.

Davida Kruger at Henry Ford Hospital is a great nurse practicioner (and the endo that she works with is good also, but I don’t remember his name).

6 11 2008
Lee Ann

There is a biological basis to depression – if that weren’t the case, there wouldn’t be that genetic factor. You take insulin because you don’t make the hormone yourself. If your neurotransmitters aren’t functioning normally, why would you choose to not treat them? Anti-depressants are not addictive, and while it sometimes takes some trial and error to find the one that works best for you with minimal side-effects, you will be so grateful to feel like a normal person again. Before I started taking them 19 years ago, I had been depressed for so long that I thought that was a ‘normal’ feeling. I started taking an anti-depressant though, and it was like someone infused life into me again. I’ve been on the same med now for 12 years, no side-effects.

I absolutely don’t mean this to offend you (that’s definitely not my intent!), but I just don’t understand why people develop these policies about psych meds. The brain and neuorological system can be just as faulty as the pancreas or the heart, but people are OK taking meds for the latter and refuse to take them for the former. I understand being afraid of the unknown since that’s normal, but getting stuck in that fear to the point that it does a disservice to you, and not having a willingness to move outside of that… well, it’s really difficult for me to grasp since I know exactly how debilitating and painful depression can be.

I obviously hope that you’ll reconsider because I hate to think of anyone needlessly suffering with depression, but however you decide to tackle this, I hope your depression is short-lived and you’re feeling like yourself again soon 🙂

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