Charlie’s first Christmas party

20 12 2008

Last year was Lucy’s first Christmas. She hung out in the back of a very strappy blue dress.  This year, though, I had two girls to keep track of.  Target to the rescue!

black-dress

OMG, this dress is so awesome.  I wore it two other times before this party and it’s just great.  The shoes kick ass too.  And you can never go wrong with pearls.  (Ignore my hair, this was taken after the party ><)  I also wore a shawl for some of the night too.

black-dress-shawl

However, here is the best part of the dress:

black-dress-pockets

That’s right.  This dress has pockets.  FTW.  All I had to do was cut a little slit in the inside of each pocket so I could slip my tubing through.  I also added a little velcro to keep the slit shut.  I had absolutely zero trouble bolusing or checking Charlie or anything.

I totally can manage my diabetes and look fantastic at the same time.  =)

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Other D words

6 11 2008

Detroit

After being bounced around as to what process to follow, I finally called our disability services number regarding the strike situation.  The lady was really nice and took down all the information that I wanted.  I got a claim number and squeezed in an appointment with my endo at the last minute.

My endo does not seem worried about getting the accommodations that I request.  And he didn’t seem to agree with me that being in Detroit would be bad.  From his perspective, I handle everything pretty well and don’t really need to be close to them.  From my perspective, this makes me nervous.  Although, my endo did mention the name of an endo he knows in Detroit that’s pretty good, so at least I would have that.

I’m really scared about the whole situation and I hope it gets resolved to my satisfaction.  Things are in motion, so all I can do now is wait.

Disappointment

While I was at my endo’s office for the strike stuff, they also did an A1c.  I wasn’t really due for one, but I was curious since I’ve been on the Dexcom for a few months now.  It came back a disappointing 6.1%.  Now, I know that is still a great number, but it broke my sub-6 streak.  My endo thinks that this is a “better” A1c because with Charlie, I have fewer lows.  So my overall control is better (less swings), but it results in a slightly higher A1c.  I know I should be happy, but after a 5.5 just 2 months ago, I still feel like a failure.

Depression

There are a lot of things going on in my world right now (as somewhat indicated by the above 2 sections) and it’s getting really hard to manage.  Too much stuff, not enough support.  Too many unknowns and no good solutions.

My mom had/has depression, and diabetics are more likely to have depression, so I’ve got 2 things going against me.  I refuse to take medication, and I already see a therapist, so I’m not sure what else I can do to get out of this funk.  How do I, as a perfectionist, let things go and allow it to be okay?





The nachos will not defeat me!

23 10 2008

I wish I could show you Charlie’s graph from last night.  It absolutely kicked ass!  I had these nachos with chicken for dinner and my blood sugar was AWESOME!!!

  • 81g carbs
  • 57g fat
  • combination bolus – 50% upfront, 50% over 2 hrs 30 min
  • starting BG: 70
  • peak BG:  118 or so (according to Charlie, actual number probably closer to 125)
  • bedtime BG:  90 or so (again, according to Charlie)

WOOOOO!!!

Small note:  I did some light exercise in the evening and ended up cancelling about .8 units of the extended portion to counteract that.





This is why I don’t get any sleep

2 10 2008

3:45am

*beeeeeeeeep*

Charlie: You are above 140.  You should correct.
Meter: 157.
Me: Yes, I should correct.  *fiddles with pump*

7:15am

*beeeeeeeeep*

Charlie: You are above 140.  You should correct.
Meter: 110.
Me: STFU, Charlie.  *goes back to sleep*





Tucked away

12 08 2008

Here’s where all of my devices were tucked away.

  1. CGMS sensor. This was the only thing you could see. I could not figure out a better way to wear this, and I’m pretty sure no one noticed. The photographer was really great about making sure my left arm was facing away from the camera.
  2. Lucy. She was clipped to my bra. Normally she doesn’t really work there because I’m pretty small, but the style of the dress lent itself to hiding her pretty well.
  3. Tubing. I tried to run this down the side seam as well as I could.
  4. Infusion site. This was on my hip, right at the seam. You could only see if I pointed it out.
  5. Charlie. She was tucked away in a Leg Thing that I purchased. Those things are freaking awesome.
  6. Starburst. There was enough room in the Leg Thing for me to stash about 4 Starburst. Those came in handy.

Checking Charlie was pretty easy.  I just crossed my right leg over my left and pulled up my dress a touch.  No big deal at all.  Bolusing was a little trickier, but by eating time, no one was paying attention to me anyway, so I was able to reach down my dress without anyone caring.

For the ceremony, I turned off all the CGMS alarms and put Lucy on the lowest beep possible.  For pictures and the reception, I went ahead and turned the alerts back on.  They were very useful for when I went low while dancing!

Overall it was a fantastic day and I wish DP all the best.  =)





In my sleep

28 07 2008

It happened with Lucy and now it happens with Charlie:  I am capable of turning off my alarms in my sleep.

With Lucy, I was able to go through the history logs and see that I confirmed an alert, even though I don’t remember waking up and doing it.  However, with Charlie, there are no history logs regarding which button you pressed and when.

I’m not that concerned about low alerts because even if I manage to sleep through the initial vibrate alert, there are follow-up beeps.  Or, if I snooze the initial alert, there is the built-in 55 mg/dl automatic alert that I believe cannot be snoozed.

However, I am disappointed with the high alert.  It will vibrate when you go above your set level, which is fine.  But, after you snooze/cancel that little vibrate, IT DOES NOT NOTIFY YOU AGAIN.  So, let’s take a little example which may or may not have happened last night.  😉

Let’s say I went to bed with an excellent blood sugar and a stable trend.  Then let’s say I woke up to go the bathroom at 3am and find that I am 292 for NO GOOD REASON.  How come Charlie didn’t wake me up?  Because I managed to hit the stupid “c” button in my sleep.  I had been above 250 for a good 3 hours and I didn’t even know it.  Laaaame.

There are some happy points to this story, though.  No ketones and I was able to correct/super-correct down to a normal blood sugar by morning.  And I have to think of the alternative.  In a life before Charlie, I wouldn’t have found out about the super high until before breakfast.  A full 4 hours later than when I actually discovered it.  That’s 4 more hours I can live with a reasonable blood sugar.  Thanks Charlie.





What is that thing on my arm?

11 07 2008

Like Kerri, I wear my Dexcom sensor on my arm.  I have found this to be the most out of the way area that’s still comfortable.  Most of the time, it’s hidden by dress shirts or T-shirts.  However, yesterday, I happened to wear a little cap-sleeved top that displayed Charlie to the world.

Needless to say, I got asked about “that thing on [my] arm.”  I took the opportunity to explain what it was.  My usual speech goes something like this:

It’s a sensor for my continuous glucose monitoring system.  It checks my blood sugar every 5 minutes and I can see the results on this graph. (At which point, I click on the receiver and show the graph)

This seems sufficient for most people, but I do get some interesting follow-up questions/comments.  One woman said “oh, I’m so sorry”.  She quickly asked about something else, so I didn’t get to respond, but there’s no reason to be sorry.  I may have diabetes, but it’s very well managed.

Another woman asked if I had it “really bad” because I have this sensor.  I find this to be the most common response.  I politely explained “Not really.  It’s just that I plan on getting pregnant in the near future and this will help me stay under control much easier.”  This is also a sufficient response most of the time, but this particular woman made an interesting comment.  “Yeah, when you get pregnant, you can get that other kind of diabetes.  Gestational diabetes.”  I know I should have corrected her, but I was too busy laughing to myself.  While technically, I would have diabetes while I was pregnant, it’s still Type 1.  It doesn’t transform itself into gestational.  I did comment, though, that my aunt had gestational diabetes and she managed to have 3 kids, so I think I’ll be okay.

I do not go to great lengths to hide my diabetes (Lucy and Charlie are always on my hips, my sensor is often clearly visible, I test my blood sugar when/where I need to, etc), but it’s not something I ever flaunt or actively bring up in conversation.  I usually wait until someone asks, then I give a clear and simple answer.  Hopefully I’ve helped some people understand a little more about diabetes and the technologies available.