Meme time

20 05 2008

Once you’ve been tagged, you write a post with 10 weird, random facts, habits or goals about yourself. At the end, choose 6 new victims to be tagged, list their names, and why you tagged them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment saying (‘You’re It!’) and to go read your blog. (I am totally skipping the tagging part because it is entirely unnecessary).

  1. I would love to learn to play the cello.  Yo-Yo Ma is my hero.
  2. I would like to visit Poland.  My mom’s entire side of the family is Polish, so it will always have a soft spot in my heart.
  3. I cannot STAND peppermint, in any forms.  I also do not like most other flavors of mint.  This makes it very hard to find a toothpaste that I can tolerate.  I also cannot kiss GiR after he’s had a mind.  Nasty….
  4. I have eaten the exact same breakfast nearly every day for at least a year.  It’s very predictable.  One frozen waffle (blueberry is preferred) with a little butter and sugar-free syrup.  16-18g carbs, depending on the brand of waffle.
  5. I save all the cans of soda I drink at work (one in the morning and one at lunch) so that I can recycle them.  I don’t have many decorations in my cube, but my soda can wall is definitely the most prominent.  Currently I have nearly 80 cans stacked up (10 cans wide, 4 cans deep, 2 cans tall) ready to recycle.
  6. GiR and I have pretty much picked out the names that we would give our kids when/if we have them.  We probably spend way too much time talking about it.  =)
  7. I have always dreamed of opening my own bakery/pastry shop.  It would specialize in foods for people with dietary restrictions:  sugar-free, low-carb, no aspartame, no MSG, lactose-free, no fried potatoes, no food dyes, gluten-free, no coconut, no nuts, etc.  Tasty food should be available to all people, no matter their “restrictions.”
  8. I always spell the past tense of the word “cancel” as “cancelled.”  My spell checkers consistently tell me that it is incorrect and it should be “canceled.”  I’m sorry, but “canceled” just doesn’t look right.  “Cancelled” is an acceptable spelling anyway, so I’m going to continue to spell it that way.
  9. For the most part, I refuse to talk in “IM speak.”  I use full spelling, mostly correct grammar, and very few abbreviations.  bc srsly, do u get wut I’m sayin?
  10. I would love to live in a city that has reasonable temperatures.  I don’t like snow and I don’t like heat.  Just something in the middle would be nice.  And not too much rain or gray skies.  As far as I know, a place like this doesn’t exist, but hey, I can dream, right?

GiR’s guide to blood sugar

8 05 2008

After seeing the wide range of values I could get from the same blood drop when comparing the Keynote to my Flash, GiR and I decided that it would just be easier to make up numbers based on how I feel instead of actually testing.

Question 1: How do I feel?

  1. Loopy
  2. Fine
  3. I want to kill something

If 1, blood sugar is low. Eat something.
If 2, blood sugar is normal.
If 3, blood sugar is high. Then ask Question 2: What do I want to kill?

  1. Myself
  2. My friends and family
  3. The entire world
  4. The entire universe

If 1, blood sugar is 150.
If 2, blood sugar is 200.
If 3, blood sugar is 250.
If 4, blood sugar is 300.


What’s really frustrating about the comparisons between meters is that I now see that I can’t really trust any of my numbers at all. If, with the same blood drop, I get numbers that are 20+ points different, then what’s the point of being so accurate at all? My pump can calculate very, very precise doses of insulin. But! They are based on this vague result of a blood sugar test. Sometimes it feels like I could just pull a number out of a hat (or take GiR’s questionnaire) and it would be close enough.

Testing out the Keynote

8 05 2008

Yesterday, I received my “assessment package” from Agamatrix to try out the Keynote.  I switched around my pouches so that I could carry both the Keynote and my Flash around to compare the values.

First test before dinner:  Flash = 72, Keynote = 92

To me, this is a fairly dangerous situation.  72 would be a low that I would need to treat, but a 92 is normal and doesn’t need to be treated.

Further tests throughout the evening and this morning have shown that the Keynote pulls up numbers that are “closer to center”, as GiR put it.  This makes sense considering the Keynote’s claim that is has a lower margin of error.  As such, it would be reasonable to say that my Flash would produce more extreme values, while the Keynote would produce more consistent values.

HOWEVER!  There is one small bug/feature that makes the Keynote not worth switching to:  You have to get the full amount of blood on the strip at one time.  If it starts sucking your blood and you don’t get enough the first time, you just wasted a strip.  I HATE THIS SOOOO MUCH!  This is why I love my Flash.  If you don’t get enough blood, it’s okay.  You have a small window of time to finish filling the test strip.

I will continue using the Keynote for awhile because half a day is hardly enough to fuss about just yet.  GiR suggested that maybe I use the Keynote to calibrate my Dexcom, since the Keynote is more likely to be accurate.  We’ll see.

Not fair

23 04 2008

I am getting soooo frustrated.  I’ve been exercising nearly every day for the last month and I have lost a grand total of…. 1-2 pounds.  I’ve seriously cut down my food intake.  I’ve cut down my insulin intake (both because of less food and better basals).  And what do I have to show for it?  Absolutely nothing.

GiR, on the other hand, eats whatever the heck he wants, barely exercises (well, he exercises with me, but I know it’s not as intense as he is used to) and he stays very trim.

I feel like it’s such a waste.  If I’m working my ass off and have nothing to show for it, then what’s the point?  It’s just not fair.

Control. Maybe a little too much…

3 04 2008

Well, I’ve gotten my 30 day average down to 120.  Hurray!  Other averages I check (21, 14, 7, and 3) all look great too!  I am fully looking forward to around a 5.6 or 5.7 at my next endo appt on April 15th.

Side note: Yes, I’m seeing a real endo.  I finally made an appointment with the best Type 1 endo in the area.  I just hope he’s good.

However, this lower average comes with a cost.  More frequent lows.  About one every other day.  Lame.

GiR threw a fit during my last low and said that I should do more basal testing.  Well, yeah, perhaps.  I’m just trying to get better control, and with better control comes more lows.  I’m also exercising more (more about that in a separate post), which is bringing my insulin requirements down.  I’m still figuring everything out.  For now, I’ve set my target blood sugar back to 95.  Hopefully that will help slightly.

I do miss the times when I wasn’t scarfing down Starburst every 15 minutes.  However, I certainly don’t miss those 200s.  They can kiss my ass.

Bummed and hungry

5 02 2008

In my quest to do better, I’ve implemented a couple of the things I set out to do.

I did an overnight basal test and that looks accurate. I might want to do another one just to confirm.

I “pre-bolus” (bolus about 15 minutes or so before eating) for lunch during the week since I eat those at a very regular time. This has definitely lowered my lunch post-prandial, so I think I will keep it up.

Regarding weight loss (which seems to be all the rage in the Diabetes OC), that’s still slow going. I have actually lost 2 pounds, which surprised me, but that could just be water, happened to have food in my stomach, holding Lucy vs. having GiR hold her, etc. I don’t see 2 pounds as anything to write home about. I’ll be excited when all 10 pounds are gone.

I did cut out snacks from the vending machine and replaced them with pre-measured bags of cashews. However, I can only eat so many cashews. I am frakking sick of them.

I just CANNOT get my daily carb count to be any lower than 150. 150 is pushing it as it is. 18 for breakfast, around 50 for lunch, around 50 for dinner, then about 20 for various snacks (See above re: cashews). That’s 138 without even thinking.

Relatedly: I feel hungry all the time. Like right now. My stomach is growling so bad and I just want to distract with some Doritos. But that’s another 30g carb that’s not in my daily allowance. What do I do?

Also, GiR will not buy or prepare meat for dinner. The question is always “pasta, noodles, or rice”? I mean, the meals will have some meat and plenty of vegetables, but I’m talking about real meat. Like chicken, a slab of beef, fish fillets, ANYTHING. It’s pretty hard to stay under 150 g carbs when my meals mostly consist of pasta.

I have the sinking feeling that all these problems are related. It’s hard to stay feeling “full” when most of my food is straight carbs with little or no protein. It’s hard to stay under 150g carbs if most of the food is carby. It’s hard to eat non-carby food when that’s all there is.

To do: Talk to GiR about incorporating more meat and low-carb meals into the budget/lifestyle. Suck it up and buy/prepare said meals myself.

Ball gowns and boluses

4 01 2008

Sorry this is so late, but the holidays absolutely killed my free time.

In early December, GiR’s work had a fancy Christmas party.  This way my first year with Lucy, so I wasn’t sure what to do.  I went through every single dress I owned to find one that could house Lucy without A) looking stupid or B) making it tricky to bolus.  Here’s what I ended up with:

blue dress back

blue dress side

Amusingly enough, this is my old prom dress!  I wore a backless/strapless bra and used a slightly different clip than I normally do.  I was able to slip Lucy out when I needed to bolus and snap her back in after.  I didn’t have to use Ryan’s help all the time and I didn’t have to reach into my bra or anything weird.

It was a multi-course meal, and I was sooooo glad I had Lucy this time around.  In the past, I just didn’t eat some of the courses because I didn’t want to bolus again.  Lucy makes this way easier.  =D

Also during the night, I found someone who was semi-recently diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes.  He told me all about how he wasn’t taking care of himself and was on a ton of pills and almost went on insulin, but decided to get into shape instead.  He lost a ton of weight and went from taking like 6 pills to only 2.  He talked about how he’s taking care of himself for the sake of his kids.  His success story completely brightened my evening and reaffirmed the fact that diabetics are some of the most awesome people out there!  =P  He was also fascinated by my pump and I hope I taught him a few things about Type 1 diabetes.

All in all, it was a great night with good blood sugars, new friends, and a kick-ass dress.